Sunday, September 3rd, 2017
UGH UGH UGH TECHNICAL ANGUISH
I just wrote the most articulate blog about my work on I PRAY ANYWAY: Devotions for the Ambivalent. And I was proud, and I did go for a fall. I wanted the correct definition for heretic and left the page. Boo hoo. This is only the third time I have used the new format for my blogs. So I lost it. I know I can’t recreate it right now. If I bump into it through technical help/miracle/ I will probably laugh at its flaws. What satisfied me was that it expressed exactly what I was thinking and that doesn’t always happen when I write.
So I surrender. Not easily. There is always thrashing before surrender. But now the blog is becoming mythically perfect because it no longer exists.
Reflection # 300
My ego is having a temper tantrum
It refuses to let go
I take pride in surrendering
Trying to give my ego at least that
I can’t even format the reflection
Not as graceful as surrender
Damn right, it isn’t