Monday, November 10th, 2014
RELIEF OR HIGH ANXIETY???
I can mess up any operating system in a minute. I do have computer anxiety.
I took a class long ago with my direct reports at work. They can validate this story. The teacher said, “Don’t worry, you can’t do any damage.” Well, I did. Who knows how? The teacher didn’t. Kept saying, “I don’t believe you did this!!”
Needless to say, I have a little sense of Jinx when it comes to technology.
And I have “learned incompetence” from having had good support people around me at work, where I just yelled, “Help”. Often and loud.
I got in a “Let’s create order!” frame of mind this last week-end. Not good.
I don’t do order so well. I’m a clear thinker in chaos, but should not approach
minute ordering. I do well with “glumps”.
I decide to clean up my computer and iPad. (So go your closets, so go your iPad and computer) Let’s say I had many many many many emails to trash.
Many, many. I turned on the cooking channel and began my clean-up.
I’ll never share how many hours passed!
But, for one glorious moment I had ZERO emails. I didn’t mean to delete the last 100 so if I haven’t responded to you, now you know why. (See what i mean?) But it felt great. A little odd, like I had no friends or importance in the world but exciting. No burden, no guilt, no clutter. I did the same with my iPad (not as easy). I felt like i was on helium.
But then, no email appeared for a day and a half. Bye, bye freedom. Hello anxiety. What did I miss? Who had I offended? What great surprise did i
pass by? I had pressed too many random keys which is my approach to technology. So I pressed random buttons again and there were 200 plus emails immediately in front of me. I felt safer. And I felt chased. How to stay ahead of the onslaught?
Food for thought. Still chewing on it.
I bet you are too.